I'm no where near being ready to move on. It's like this little force that pulls me towards her and i can't escape it further more I don't want to. I'm honestly questioning if i can because right now it really doesn't feel like it at all. I thought it would be easy changing the way i felt, like with becca. That was easy...i guess i didn't truly love her. This time is different it's never felt like if one person wasn't some where anywhere on the planet, it would be utterly pointless to stay.

I love you

and i can never truly show it.