Reaching for some physical appreciation, I want to know that she wants me an that I'm the only girl she's looking at. She's the only girl I look at in that way, and I've no need of finding that in anyone else. 

I'm fit to burst with damn disire and i'm not so much ashamed of it more i can't contain it. I can't focus, all i want to do is pick her up in my arms push the shit off my desk and fuck her so slowly because i don't want to rush it. I want to feel her touching me, i want the head rush of kissing her and the anticipation of being about to get lost in her, feeling her inside me. I'm a giant ball of sexual tension.

Not any girl. No club girls. Kate. Holy shit, why she thinks I'd ever have need of looking at other girls I have no idea. Clothes.. No clothes. Especially no clothes. She sent me a picture drunk but fuck it wiped my brain now all I can think about is picking her up wrapping her legs around me and fucking her. Yep. 

Literally so frustrated I could jump into the Clyde. Ridiculous craving to have a girl on my skin, feel her softness is far too intense and shit for my liking. I mentally undress every single girl I walk past 

It's still a mind fuck to me that there are a couple of seriously gorgeous girls interested in me, theres this girl called sarah ( who happens to be a surfer and an underwear model? How kirsty but well done) and i'm not sure if it's going to be a purley sex fling. I found myself thinking about where i would take her out, sounded her out about it as well so i think i maybe will. It feels right so why not. I need to be gentle with her though because a full on relationship still isn't what im really looking for. 

Sooo morally ok to sleep with a girl whos just dumped her girlfriend? we will see. 

uugh i don't know what i really want but i think i do want her, she's coming over tomorrow night after we go out but my confidence is shot. Seems like the more girls i pull in clubs the more it hits my confidence? i've been seriously bad resently. Six girls in one night, i don't know i don't feel so bad about it really because i've never been able to do this before. Basically just being greedy. Girls everywhere and i've got no idea why but they seem to seriously take to me. They ask me if i want to go back to there flat though and i don't, i even check myself but i actually don't want to sleep with them. Takes a more attraction, i can't find a girl with glow but i don't spose a club is the place to go looking. When i'm on my own i seriously crave being fucked and spending some time on someone just making them feel good, pulling them up in the shower. I won't be sleeping alone tomorrow night but i'm not sure if i'll take it on, i need to have that feeling of seriously not being able to resist them.