Fucking RUN kirsty.

I need to go somewhere now, like right now or i'm going to explode. 

Right now

I want to come and get you and get on a train anywhere, Glasgow/Edinburgh/Aberdeen i don't care lets just go. We will blow a load of cash in the gay clubs/clubs and just forget everything for a night. I'll find us a hotel. Right now it feels like my skin is burning up i just want to go, come with me? 

                                                        Rip away our clothes. 

To forget and let go of everything.

Shit 

I want you underneath my finger tips

your lips on mine

No space between us, no one else.

No thinking.

I want you so badly.

I'm so fucking addicted to you damn it. 

Waste of space. Total waste of space and i need to pull myself out of the situation. Hopefully i will be in the shop as soon as i can, get my CV out and just get back on track. I really have no idea. Don't deserve the amazing things i've got. My girlfriend, my family and friends. Want to knock some sense into myself out.

             Lets go back here someday?

              I miss you, most every day.

                             

My heart would die with yours

This is the last thing i expected..

I talk way too much shut me up?

I know i'm quite clingy, i would probably cuddle you all the time if i could. I know that probably gets wearing because then when you just want some space i get offended. Well tuff, i need to learn so push me back, slap me. This is all still new so i think maybe i tend to get greedy if you know what i mean? 

I do get quite jealous a lot and there is no excuse. I hope you know that i do trust you, that i know it's me you want or you wouldn't be with me. I hate it because you always say sorry but it's not your fault it's mine. I struggle with it to be honest because it's damage that was done before i even knew you but you're having to put up with me being like this. It's still a lovely shock when you tell me things like "my wish came true three months and six days ago" because you want me. Me? I can make you happy.. that's something that is so new. I never thought i could have. You. Makes me smile

we have our little grumps and frustrated moments with each other don't we? I'm glad because if you can see me at my worst - when i get jealous or clingy, when i get too easily offended - and still love me like this then i'm even luckier. These things seem such a tiny part of us though. 

I love you. 

I'm sorry.

Thankyou for putting up with me..
I don't need to wish for anything anymore.

It's been three months and ten days now..i couldn't ask for anything better.
You make me so ridiculously happy. 

                            You treat my family like there your family..

  You help me mess up my bed and leave it to remind me for days after.

                              You sit in the fire place and watch the fire every time you're home, looking all kinds of beautiful. 

      I love you

We have been friend for nearly eighteen years. 

We played together and have grown up together... now she has a beautiful baby boy. 

I was just standing holding the little piece of eilidh in my arms, i guess it's always nice to remember how much you love the people that have always been in your life. This girl is amazing, she is so determined to do her best how ever tired or ill she is. 

Eilidh, you're a wonderful human bean my love. I will always have a space for you where ever i am, and callun of course. You're one of those friends who i know im going to love like this forever. 

She's my electric girl..

If i could be with you now? I would turn the lights out so we could only make out the outlines of each others bodies, wrap my arms around your waist and hold you close to me. Holding off for a while then hover my lips close to yours so that they brush occasionally, run them along your collar bone to your neck, and kiss you. 

This is why people go kirsty.. it's my fault every time. It's me even though it looks like them. It's always been me thats the problem. 

I'm sick of you fighting. Just GET ON FOR TWO FUCKING SECONDS. Your driving me crazy. I'm not here to be used as a middle man for you two to create more arguments. Everythings too much to ask for isn't it?

so frustrated i just want to scream. 

I'm not sure why i bother some times