Old enough to know now that Nobody will come when I need them

Friends, life and a mixture of over thought and reality.

I'm fed up of feeling like I'm going no where. I feel so trapped and I want someone to hear me...listen just listen. I'm in a dead end job, the collage clearly doesn't give a fuck. I give a fuck I'm not going to spend my life doing nothing.

You know when someone speaks to you in a nasty way or does something and it feels like something in your chest sinks. I cant even remember what was actually said but it hurt me. It's been one of those days and I feel like I'm annoying everyone so I'm just going to leave people alone. Pining for a cuddle.

I miss her and I want her with me in bed right now. Sleeping in my arms, kissing me I don't care I just want her warmth and the smell of her skin. I want her to roll over tomorrow and kiss me.

FUCKING DISTANCE

Can't seem to ever just do what people need me to or ask of me.

I try
So damn hard...that counts right?

Run off the heart ache right

Doesn't work when I've been wishing for something for a year now..working for it. Education hates my guts so im never going to get anywhere

Oh would you just fuck off out of my head. This thing is eating me alive still, from the inside of it and you know what in the least emotional way. I'm fucking sick of it.. Get off me. I'm curing myself for the most fantastic reason. That's my relationship with natalie because she is like the top goal to be the best version of myself. Jealousy can suck it and you can go and fuck yourself becca.