I'm not sure why but when i'm working out i enjoy it a lot more now because it's like i know i'm doing it for you. I know through you're eyes i'm okey what ever shape i am and like wise you are always totally beautiful to me. You just push me to push myself further though with out saying a word, you make me want to train harder to be better. It just gives me a little extra rush that after a work out i've done well and i've done it for you in a way. I love it. Being able to make you happy is just amazing, i adore waking up knowing that when you wake up we are both thinking about each other. You make me so ridiculously happy and i just can't get enough of you. When you're not here i'm counting down until you will be.. i can't wait to pick you up in my arms and kiss you when you come home. Feel your skin underneath my finger tips again.

In a way there is a positive from being away from you, missing you so badly. When you come back and i see you again you will look even more beautiful than my mind would let me remember. It's like i learn your face all over again when we have been away from each other even though i know every dimple, line, freckle on it.

I really really can't wait to have to back in my arms. I want to kiss you so badly but i have just written you a letter to stem it for a while. You know what i just realised? My dream came true and i have been living it for two years now. I can't wait to see where we go i really can't. I don't care what anyone sais aslong as you're happy. iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou :) 

What can i say? she is incredible. And smart and beautiful. I can trust her and she can trust me. Even though we had been like this more or less for nearly three years i still love her more every day. When she kisses me it's like everything washes away. I wake up every day and still can't believe it, she loves me? but she does and there will never be a day that i don't want to thank what/who ever brought her to me. I love you. If i counted the times i've had dreams about marrying you then i would have lost count by now. You're my whole world and i think you are simply amazing.. i do

You can't go back but you can go forward, learn from the mistakes and fix what has gone wrong in the past. Your scars will fade, just give it time and they will i promise. The over dosing won't hurt you long term but..please before it goes too far baby do your best to cut it down.. if you can i know. I know it's not easy. As for your mum and dad, do your best with it. However hard, it will get easier. For the times when you can't do it anymore, run to me and i will put you back together.

It feels like someone has punched me repeatedly in the ribs every time i'm not too busy to think. I wish they had, i wish someone would just take offence to me and lay into my body until i pass out. Idiot. Idiot. Idiot. I want to run so no one has to deal with my shit anymore.

Okey so that was ridiculously hot..