The way i look at it, it doesn't matter what is going to happen just yet. Today is today and if your worrying about somthing that will happen tommorw or next week then how can you focus on the good shit thats is going on now? Im not sure how i managed to do it but taking things day to day works. I don't know what to do most of the time and somtimes it seems like im just trying to hold everything and everyone together. At the end of the day when everyone is okey..when i can say i've done the best i can for them. I can sleep. Knowing everyones safe.