Giving it my all trying to do the best i can for everyone and i feel like i'm making it worse and worse. I'm not going to give up trying to do the best for Natalie, and kirsty. Isla as well but i need to figure out where i'm going wrong. I don't want to hurt anyone but i'm shite at expressing myself without it sounding like blame. Made myself sick yesterday i worried myself into a panic and i'm not even sure why. I don't feel right.

Just want to be holding Nat so i can tell her how sorry i am for being rubbish. Make her giggle and she can sit and tell me all her stories.